New Business

SO, K got the loan to pay of credit cards and is feeling peachy about spending money/starting a business. I am cautiously on board, because she wants to start a photo booth and event management company. It will be little overhead to start (though I think it will cost more than she does) which is good because it will take some time to build up the business. We will see how this goes. Currently, I'm researching all of the photo booth companies in the ATL area. There are total about 100, but 75 of them are not well advertised online (in the back pages of The Knot) yet still in business. If we run 10-15 events we will break even for the business not including K running event management things for weddings/birthdays/etc.

K has a dream of working for herself which scares the crap out of me because she is the breadwinner in our household. If it works though, we could see some significant money.

Blogging

On a separate note, this blog feels so freeing to write down my thoughts without thinking about who will read it and interpret it. I'm sure some internet wiz may find it eventually, but for now it is a great place to vent, put my thoughts down, and express my feelings without judgment. Feels nice.

Struggle

I've struggled with liking myself almost all of my life. There is the voice of anxiety and depression in the back of my head telling me that I'm not good enough. Sometimes it is easy to tune that out, other times... not so much.

Today, I've been looking at pictures from Uncle D's wedding of K and I, for the first time in a long time, I like the way I look. I can still be critical about it, but all I see is happiness and true love. K has saved me in a way that no one else ever has. Unconditional love is pretty amazing.

Also, K broke down and let us buy a new TV for our room. I'm not sure she realized how big 55" is, but now she does!